Motivation

Definition (noun)::the psychological feature that arouses an organism to action toward a desired goal; the reason for the action; that which gives purpose and direction to behavior



Motivation.
Something I feel as if I have been lacking lately. I really needed a break from life. Spring break came at a good time.
I got into the swing of things of life here at school, but so much had gone on that I wasn't doing so well for many reasons.
But I lost motivation to do well, to pursue certain goals, my focus was different.
I returned to school apprehensive that I would fall into a trap again, lack motivation, be lazy or distracted. But for some reason today was a good day. The motivation that I thought was going to be gone suddenly came back. I for some reason was alert in classes today for the first time in probably a month or so.
It's crazy how a week away from the what has become the routine made the routine make sense again...
I'm not a 100 percent or anything, by any means, but somehow I have that motivation that was lacking. I'll take advantage of it for as long as I can.
The main motivation that was gone was motivation for school itself (academics). For someone who loves to learn it's a very weird place to be...didn't quite feel like myself at all for that reason.
But out of nowhere I woke up, suprisingly, completely different.
Maybe I should be anxious about this more often, and then BAM- motivation will hit me!
Or maybe not. haha.
For now I'll be grateful for what I have and finish writing so I can go read my Psych book- something I'm actually somewhat excited to do!