Time Warp

It's crazy how so much can change and yet stay the same.

These are just some random thoughts, so you can work with me on this one, or not understand...I apologize in advance. And to note ahead of time, I am in a good mood, so if I sound emo...I'm not haha.

One of my good friend's from last semester is visiting this weekend. She used to live on my hall and we got pretty close. It was really weird when she couldn't return because I got so used to seeing her all the time. It's kinda like you don't realize how much time you invest in spending time with someone until they're not there. It's more different I think on a hall environment than at home, just because of dynamics....maybe because on a hall you have 69 options and than you can choose a few that you connect with...I don't know, it's just different. Or maybe it's just the Liberty world...

We were conversing though, and while it felt like something was missing and the new normal of not having my  friend here set in in the beginning of the semester, when I saw her again on the hall it felt like nothing had changed. Sure, life had moved on in many ways. Catching up was definitely in order, but it just felt the same...or maybe it just felt right. Some times time is weird cause it just felt like all that time had passed didn't really pass at all, as if the waiting period or time a part, sure it was long and it existed, but the present is here and nothing is really different.

That's how a lot of waiting is. Sometimes it seems like forever until a goal is to be achieved, and yeah a lot times a lot of days, months, years etc go by.

Like high school for instance. I never thought graduation would come, but now it's been almost two years since I graduated and it feels like a world away. I have changed so much, so many things have changed, but if I were to walk into Myers Park I could transport myself back in time even for a split second.

Or even a shift at work. Sometimes I really just want to clock off , it feels like it will never end, but it always does. No matter how long the shift is, it ends...I will get out of work and move on with my day.

I even remember being in a similar situation. It's difficult to describe the exact feeling, but when I lived in Greece I was gone for so long that it felt like Charlotte didn't exist anymore. While I knew it was there, it didn't feel real, it had been too long. But then, while I waited what felt like forever until I returned home again happened, I was suddenly there and I didn't know how to process it at all.

It's just weird sometimes when so many things change all at once, people, situations, life etc how nice it can be to actually have what you were waiting on happen....and then once it does, it feels maybe different, weird, or just plain good.

I don't know if I am making any sense at all, but those good moments are coveted despite all the bad ones that teach so much. I enjoy the blessings from above.

This semester has been nothing from what I expected and I think I say that about every semester to be honest. Mainly because a lot has changed. I miss the way things were but even more than that I am so hopeful for the future, not just next year at LU but just in general. However, I am also perfectly content in "the waiting" --the majority of the living of life and what takes place.

It's also nice to be reunited with familiar, quality people. There is nothing better than being in the same physical location as that person. Just sayin. I look forward to being home again with my family next week and in Charlotte, to see my home friends. I look forward to many reunions in the future. It's a sweet feeling :)

O time warp feelings... :)